His writing was equanimous — a silent embrace of the horrible and beautiful man that he was.
He never understood the baby boomer obsession with peace and happiness or the idealism that came along with it. The concept of life purpose has exploded in popularity in recent decades. We want to do something important.
We want to be noticed. We want to be looked up to.
But like any other luxury, we idealize meaning. People believe that all you have to do is find the thing — that one bloody thing!
But we just need that one thing — if only we knew what we were meant to do , then everything would fit into place! And you have to love it. You really have to love it. Finding the passion and purpose in your life is a trial-by-fire process. You must try something , pay attention to how it feels, adjust and then try again. Nobody gets it right on the first try, or the tenth or sometimes even the two-hundredth. And what Bukowski understood more than most was that doing what you love is not always loving what you do.
Just like few of us experience love at first sight, few will experience passion and meaning at first experience.
Like a relationship, we must build it from scratch, piece-by-piece, until after years of brick and sweat, it can stand on its own. We all think we know ourselves well, but psychological studies show otherwise. In fact, most of us are somewhat deluded about ourselves. I put together a page ebook explaining how we can come to know ourselves better, just fill out your email in the form. You can opt out at any time.
This leads you into a consulting business, but after dealing with the surface level issues for years, you discover that the body molds itself to match repressed emotions. Eight hours of work was more than good enough for centuries oh the desperate irony that we actually work longer hours since the invention of the internet and smartphones. Four hours will amply cover picking the kids up, cleaning the flat, eating, washing and the various etceteras. We are left with six hours. Is what we want simply to numb out and give Simon Cowell even more money?
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To scroll through Twitter and Facebook looking for romance, bromance, cats, weather reports, obituaries and gossip? To get nostalgically, painfully drunk in a pub where you can't even smoke? What if you could know everything there is to know about playing the piano in under an hour something the late, great Glenn Gould claimed, correctly I believe, was true?
The basics of how to practise and how to read music, the physical mechanics of finger movement and posture, all the tools necessary to actually play a piece - these can be written down and imparted like a flat-pack furniture how-to-build-it manual; it then is down to you to scream and howl and hammer nails through fingers in the hope of deciphering something unutterably alien until, if you're very lucky, you end up with something halfway resembling the end product. What if for a couple of hundred quid you could get an old upright on eBay delivered? And then you were told that with the right teacher and 40 minutes proper practice a day you could learn a piece you've always wanted to play within a few short weeks.
Is that not worth exploring? What if rather than a book club you joined a writer's club? Where every week you had to really had to bring three pages of your novel, novella, screenplay and read them aloud? I didn't play the piano for 10 years. A decade of slow death by greed working in the City, chasing something that never existed in the first place security, self-worth, Don Draper albeit a few inches shorter and a few women fewer.
And only when the pain of not doing it got greater than the imagined pain of doing it did I somehow find the balls to pursue what I really wanted and had been obsessed by since the age of seven — to be a concert pianist. Admittedly I went a little extreme — no income for five years, six hours a day of intense practice, monthly four-day long lessons with a brilliant and psychopathic teacher in Verona, a hunger for something that was so necessary it cost me my marriage, nine months in a mental hospital, most of my dignity and about 35lbs in weight.
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And the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow is not perhaps the Disney ending I'd envisaged as I lay in bed aged 10 listening to Horowitz devouring Rachmaninov at Carnegie Hall. My life involves endless hours of repetitive and frustrating practising, lonely hotel rooms, dodgy pianos, aggressively bitchy reviews, isolation, confusing airline reward programmes, physiotherapy, stretches of nervous boredom counting ceiling tiles backstage as the house slowly fills up punctuated by short moments of extreme pressure playing , notes from memory in the right order with the right fingers, the right sound, the right pedalling while chatting about the composers and pieces and knowing there are critics, recording devices, my mum, the ghosts of the past, all there watching , and perhaps most crushingly, the realisation that I will never, ever give the perfect recital.
It can only ever, with luck, hard work and a hefty dose of self-forgiveness, be "good enough". Reading this on a mobile? Click here to view video And yet.